21 June 2009

Strong

You wake up and the first thing you think of is not what date it is, what you have to do today, or what weather you can see behind the window, but you think whether it is still here, or is it finally gone. For a few moments it seems it went away. You are afraid to move, as though you could bring it back this way. So you don't move at all. You just lie down for a few minutes, motionless, looking at the wall and thinking what you would do if it wasn't here. How busy you would be, occupied with being happy and excited before your big holidays that you've been planning for nine months. It's kind of cruel not being able to be excited now, you think, and continue to lie down, and try not to shed a tear. You're strong, remember? This pain isn't going to bring you down, no.

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4 comments:

Black Knight said...

Eh....what?

Or one could wake up, make coffee (breakfast) & smile at the morning sunshine.

(I...I think I missed the point)

Anna said...

Yes, you did but it's ok. ;-)

I've been struggling with a headache for a few days. That's what it was about.

:hug:

Black Knight said...

Oh, I see! LOL
Well, I hope it has diminished.
I guess it was a deliberate point not to mention what you were referring to, in the original blog. :)

Anna said...

Well, I did write the word "pain" there. ;-)